I guess I have decided this will be bi-daily posts, which means they’ll be super long and filled with too many pictures. I wonder how long I will keep this up for, but anyways, I’ve decided to add sub-headings. Exciting, right? I find they help organize my thoughts and this is how I write exams, so it’s good practice (wtf, did I just justify tumbling as exam practice…yeah, I totally did #facepalm).
Sunday, 4 March 2012
Yesterday turned out to be a total wash of a day. It was like the way my Reading Week felt: I didn’t get any work but I didn’t have any fun. I hate when I do this. It’s the most useless way of spending one’s life. I’d much rather just have fun. Next time, I need someone to tell me to just go out and do something fun.
Check out my first efforts with the Crockpot. I probably should have found a recipe, but instead I threw in things that I thought would be delicious. I put in lentils, red kidney beans, rice, broccoli, a red bell pepper, a celery, tomatoes, and a carrot. It turned out to be mush, but totally delicious mush. I’m pretty glad about the Crockpot, so many ideas. Next up: vegan kheer. Yeah, my mouth waters at the thought too.
Gardein Buffalo Wings
I’m such a hungry bear (speaking of which, I currently think I may be hungry again after eating dinner & having two smoothies #facepalm), I decided my mush would not be enough to feed me, so I pulled out these Gardein wings. I’ve never actually tried any Gardein products. I was feeling really strange about the smell of the sauce. I think having been vegetarian this long, one develops aversions to things that are associated with meat, which obviously buffalo sauce has been for me. However, the wings were delicious. I’m so excited about learning more about my food. I’ve just recently learned about TVP (textured vegetable protein). It’s fascinating, I’ve been eating it for years, just not knowing what it was.
I finished up the last two vegan gulab jamuns…and I also had some of my vegan pineapple coconut ice cream. I love this ice cream so much. I need to find a vegan mint chocolate chip ice cream. I’ve been craving that.
Best sub-heading, right? I ended up “watching” (only half-paying attention to) Zack and Miri Make a Porno. Yeah, I know, I don’t know why I watched it. I suppose when I’m having a terrible day, the solution is to add its terribleness. It was a dumb movie, nothing that pushed the boundaries or anything like that. But it got me thinking about porn.
I recently checked out porn for the first time (recently meaning like two months ago). I find it fascinating how people navigate discourse about porn, especially from my perspective as a woman. I was in a course on Sexual Ethics last year, in which this fairly anti-feminist guy pointed out how he thought feminist porn was some fiction & that he knew no one who actually watched. To me, it just seemed like, well why would anyone tell you that they watch feminist porn (especially him)? But it’s also interesting to me that I only know one woman that openly has talked to me about watching porn. I’m not sure if men talk to each other about porn, or how people of other genders approach it. It’s just interesting to me that it’s something that I have never really had discussions about. I just wonder if it has to do with porn being too intimate of an experience, like is it just TMI? (I have really sketch notions of TMI, as I tweet about my menstrual cycle) Or is it this socialization that we shouldn’t talk about sex? Anyways, I was going to theorize more, but I just discovered a pro-sex vegetarian/vegan porn site, so I need to reflect on it…? :O They have nude pictures of people making veggie food…I’m not even sure if I should comment on this.
Probably a strange transition from porn to straight edge (vxv). I just recently discovered this straight edge vegan movement. It’s fascinating! I love the radicalism. It is also explains to me why someone asked me at some point whether my non-participation in alcohol was a straight edge thing. I don’t really have a position on it yet, but it kind of excites me to learn more about it.
Humble the Poet
So yesterday was a day of discovering radicalism. Humble the Poet is a young South Asian Canadian poet. I know he’s popular amongst a lot of my fellow young desis, including my brother. But I have never taken time to listen to his works. I stumbled on this last night at 2 am. It breaks my heart because the stories are so real, things that I know and have experienced. It’s a brilliant navigation of diasporic politics, social justice concepts, and is artistic.
This is the type of thing that I truly care about, but it also is so personal that I often struggle with it. I wrote my undergraduate thesis on multiculturalism and gender equality. The literature on the subject was about dealing with tensions between the two. I found myself evaluating the way I was raised and I remembered some really uncomfortable things that I had forgotten. The literature tends to argue that girls in minority cultures are socialized to believe they have less value than their brothers. When reflecting on this, I remembered that my mother use to tell me when I was 5 or so things like “girls shouldn’t talk so much” or “girls shouldn’t laugh so loudly” (background: I was admittedly a pretty loud and talkative kid…heck I still am, and I love laughing). I also remembered that I would ask her “why” and upon not receiving a satisfactory answer would continue to my own thing. On the one hand, I was pretty happy to recall that I’ve always been quite assertive. But, on the other hand, my mom has changed quite a bit and would never say something like that to me, so it made me feel uncomfortable. How do I even deal with that? It’s always difficult to study things that are so personal and that you care so much about.
Monday, 5 March 2012
Today was a chaotic day - but way better than yesterday. I had one of those days where I was rushing to get things put together because I was so unproductive.
Summer Research Position
I was offered the summer research position on the project on animals, law, and feminism. I’m so excited about this. It’s exactly where I’m at both personally and academically. I’m so pumped about it, I want to start reading some critical theory literature to familiarize myself with the relevant material. I can’t decide what to start with.
I had my first moot (mock trial). See my chaotic paper mess of preparation and my lovely friend D, who I had dinner with after the moot. She’s fabulous. She’s into Doctor Who, politics, and stationery. I’ve decided the combination of these three things automatically elevates people to a level of coolness.
Witness my silly self-portrait & my shoes.
Anyways, I’m kind of exhausted now. I think I philosophized about too many things in this post. I’m not sure if I should separate things out into smaller posts, or just keep it lengthy like this. I’m not sure if anyone has actually read to this point, but I’d love to hear your thoughts on the matter.
Added Observations on Food
Also, I cut up a pineapple! And then I made a pineapple, raspberry, and coconut milk smoothie. It was so delicious. I can’t even begin to capture the deliciousness. Oh, I tried rice milk this week! I got this brown basmati kind & I quite like the flavour. I need to go buy some brown rice for my kheer recipe & I want to buy some quinoa, take the plunge and try making it. I also want some more Gardein products (but I think I may have to class them under junk food). I feel like I’ve been eating & thinking about food *way* more since going vegan - not sure if this is good or bad yet.